Here on the internet we would be scholars and teachers of men spend much time and effort to be the most impressive with our understanding of scripture. We volley back and forth with our ideas of spiritual understanding and enlightenment. We give off the impression that our walk with the Lord has brought us to a place of spiritual maturity if not perfection, for personal imperfection is taboo when we are trying to gain a following of what we advocate.
Let me be the first to say that I am not what I should be in the Lord. I have not arrived and at times I feel like I lose ground. I am aware that I am in a spiritual battle. All is not quiet on the western front for me. As Carmen says in one of his song, “My flesh and spirit had a race and Satan went full throttle.” But with this confession how, can I become what I need to be in Christ.
I looked for it in the local church and I did not see what I was promised. I have looked for it here on the net and saw no evidence of it here either. Where do I go to be part of what every believer needs?
It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to prepare God’s people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
When I go to the local body all I see is the pastor, worship leader, Sunday school teacher and the guy who gives announcements, church administrator, sound ministry etc. I can find all kinds of titles and positions in church except for what God has ordained for us, to benefit us in our walk with our God. Where are the prophets that speak into our lives and keep us on the path with God? Where is the Apostles and the evangelist with their leadership and spiritual gifts to build up the body of Christ?
On line we are like players of Monopoly trying to gain as much following as possible to be that which we desire to be. Yet where is the Spirit of the Lord? We on line are no better off than what we are at the local level, maybe even worse.
How does one get past what is so glaringly lacking in what God Himself has given the church, so we can become mature? I know for me that I do not want to be full of head knowledge and yet miss what I could have been in Christ, because I never became mature in my walk.
Who else is with me in acknowledging we can’t do it ourselves. Who will acknowledge with me we need the prophet too? Who will admit with me we need more than just the pastor, but the apostle and evangelist too?
Is there any hope for a people who are denied the existence of every office God has ordained for our benefit excluding the office of the pastor? Is there any hope for a people who have been so sheep herded, that we think only one kind of bleating sheep (the pastor) is good enough for us. Most of us can’t even recognize God not only wants, but needs us to bleat out his message in all the offices and gifts of the Spirit as He has ordained for us. For those of who think we have arrived and are a light to men, what office of the Spirit are you, another pastor?
I need you to help me become what I desire to be in Christ. I need your accountability, wisdom, prayers, spiritual understanding, spoken word of knowledge, timely rebuke and correction. And somehow have this in the biblical context of what Paul preached, the testimony of the Law and the prophets. Not something close to the real thing, but the real thing.
In the natural I feel this is hopeless, but with the Spirit I have hope.
 Ephesians 4:11-13